** Thirty Six **

something in me stings

then again

i cant do anyting about it

i talked to a friend today

about every lie i've told

about every sin i sinned

everything

maybe i'll regret telling this friend all this one day

but for now

this friend is all i've got

cuz no one is willing to listen to what i have to say

my long life lies aren't that much of an interesting topic either

just shows how more naive i am right now

i sat down there crying myself out

pouring out every emotion left in me

every emotion burried for so long

and my friend just sat there listening

comforting, whispering words into my ear

my friend let me cry

didn't bother to hand me tissue

didn' bother to say "the past is the past"

seriously

i don't give a shit about those stuff

somehow

i find that when one is crying

all you can do is be by one's side

lend a shoulder to cry on

and just let one let it all out

what kind of bullshit are you people tyring to pull

crowding around

giving loads of tissue

patting the back

telling me "its ok" "everythings fine"

if everything was fine....

I WOULDN'T BE CRYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so here's a big thanks to my awesome friend

for not being like MOST people i know

for just letting me cry myself out

for letting me drown my tears out

for silently sitting, hearing me sob

for being there for me

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everyone has one of those days where

you just feel like

crying

one of the reasons why i don't cry owh so very often

its cuz the people around never learn to shut up

i wanna cry in silence

and you people come and ask this ask that

asking makes me cry even more don't you think?!?!

it's like asking me to retell what just made me cry...

how intelligent....*ppfffttt*

maybe something happened today

that i don't really wanna talk about

sometimes i really sit down and ask myself

as i stare into the mirror

Rachel...

Kong Yee Rou...

Why are you just a student....

Why are you not bother to take part...

Why are you so "cin cai"...

Why aren't you serious about things...

Why aren't you holding any important post...

Why are you not bothered about your curicular...

Why are you so unknown...

Why are you so fugly...

Why can't you smile more...

Why are you so stupid...

Why are you so useless...

Why are you so forgetful...

Why do you keep "shapeshifting"...

Why are you so anti-social...

Why are you so friendless...

Why are you so rude at times...

Why are you so not creative...

Why...

Why...

Why...

Why...

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whooooOOOoo...Tomorrow's friday!!!!!

xD

the end of another week...

woah competition in one more week to go...

darn...

the world's gonna end in T-minus 10 seconds

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okay...maybe a little too dramatic...

okay...before i die...

*clock frozen*

i'd like to thank my

er

damn why am i writting a thank you speech

i should be writing my will...

xD

nvm la...

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*died*

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My Lame-o-meter has just reach it's max

trying to brush off the sadness so yeah

i'm being lame

hehehehe

okay

i can't exactly sound happy tho i'm trying to

so here's where it ends for today...

~peaceee~