** Thirty Four **

F A L L E N
into love
into despair
into desparation
into hatrate
into imaginations
into darkness

F E L T

the sadness

the sorrow

the pain

the happiness

the joy

the bliss

the nightmares

the dreams

S A N K

deep into the abyss

under everything real

behind a mask

through lies

into fire

W I T N E S S E D

the mixed emotions

confusions

feeling lost

the crowd

alone

silenced

tired

the complications

F O R G O T T E N

the past

the memories

the faded

the deleted

the venom

the poison

the trashed

R andomly speaking, feeling fa R

A nswers i never will get, behind the lens of the camer A

C alling out for help, to be optimisti C

H opes , crus H

E verything is shattered, nothing mor E

L ost within the sands of time, to kil L

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i spend so long just doing the above

well

my mum's falling sick

and my report card's out tomorrow

someone has to go get it with me

and if my mum's sick

and my dad's not free [ i think ]

who's gonna get it?!?!?!

ahhh...my results aren't much to see anyway

well im failing more and more

and i really wish i could do something about it

2 months dead line draws closer

taekwondo BTFC championship even closer

DAMNNNNNNNN

i really wanted to get started today

and when i REALLY wanted to start

i had to go out get dinner

cuz my mum's sick

my post's grows shorter and shorter

but hey...at least i update

i feel a bit hung over lately

like i've been walking on air all this while

i cant feel my legs

seriously!!!!!

so my late nights really do kill me

but i dont have a choice

i have to do things

i still have homework to be done

not to mention

the occasional "distractions"

i really need to slap myself back to earth

cuz i know

i am no longer here

somehow

it feels like it anyway

maybe it's just all this crap surrounding me right now

one more silly complication

and i swear i will burst out

just one itsy bitsy thing

and i swear i will be kicking and screaming

so forgive me if i do

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im under A LOT of "pressure" at the moment