** Thirty Five **

okay list of things to post today

P.S. i suffer frm STML so yeah i have to make a list before i forget

** Copy-Tards

** Met TheIvorySpeaks

** Taekwondo competition

** Weird Family gathering

** Other not so important stuff

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first and foremost

i am from 4Sc1

proud and happy i'm in that class

*coughs*

as i recall....

everyone rolled their eyes...

when we went "SEMaNGaT"

when we did our motto

when we did out "4Sc1. WE ROCK"

when we started "KUNDEJEM"

and i bet they'd roll when did "FEELING" as well

and guess what?????

i dare point all ten fingers of mine

if i had more i'd point them too

and all ten toes of mine

at all the hypocrites

who dissed us

who hated us

who tried to bring us down

who were envious of our togetherness

the same group of "animals"

now

FOLLOWING IN OUR FOOTSTEPS

copying

following

immitating

wow...man....

you "animals" must be SO lame

that you DONT even know how to start something on your own

and end up COPYING

the great 4Sc1

yeah we should be PROUD

these losers wanna achieve extreme awesomeness like US

but HELL NO man

this is COPYRIGHTED by 4Sc1

and shall be used by the KUNDEJEMS of 4Sc1 ONLY

you people [ok i shall not call u ppl animals. sounds harsh.]

can copy all you want

the entire school knows

4Sc1's SEMANGAT

4Sc1's KUNDEJEM

4Sc1's symbol / motto

4Sc1's "APPLE"

4Sc1's FEELING [comming soon..xD]

4Sc1 started it all

xD

............SEMANGAT........

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jamc is in a weeks time...

kinda

well i asked my teacher and she gave an okay on teaming up

but she still inststed i did one on my own

heh

well at least my work load has been reduced

TheIvorySpeaks aka Joshua Yew Ling Heng

Lawls....><

sorry...i must write ur name...

cause i warned u i'd get ur full name even if u didnt tell me

muahahahahaha

MUSTTTTT

anyway...

it's real awesome working with him

[ do not misunderstand ]

so i'll shed some light on Joshua Yew Ling Heng

xD [ just to irritate him when he reads this ]

then get to jamc

*ehemmmmm*

Joshua Yew Ling Heng , 19

drummer / pianist

VERY tall [or maybe he's tall from where i stand]

Sunburnt...lawls...=X

to tell u the truth Joshua did most of the work

i just poked in here and there

yeah i know im useless

within ONE WEEK

Joshua had prepared drafts for the TWO of us

sorry dude....half the things u explained i didn't understand

><

and within the week

finished everything...

gosh...xD

that was so very fast

*bows* thank you Joshua. thanks so much. *bows*

*claps*

okay i still have to work on the gliding

there's one part i really like in Joshua's masterpiece

but it's so hard.......................><

i think even HE got frustrated trying to get me to do it right

play few keys

glide

play summore

glide

slam on chords

technically i get the chords all wrong

i a bit lambat so fingers oso lambat

once again...

*bows* Thank You Joshua *salute*

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okay here come's the complaints

there is a diff between MSKL and BTC

besides the spelling

andrianna shouldn't have told me MSKL was harder than BTFC

bad andrianna!!! *slap*

figures

now i even MORE scared

i've made a promise

that if i make it through MSKL

i will do BTC too

*ppppffffttttt*

first time go for competition

join EVERYTHING

crapper la you.....

i scared i kena belasah during sparing...><

dah lah i kecil....

so so so so so so so

i'm excited and scared

well if i dont do well this year there's always next year to try

it's worth the experience

as i've been avoiding the competition for the past few years

Master wants to send me but i said no

more or less cause i know i get stage fright

and get blank when i'm nervous

guess what?

i'm not 16 yet

so.....

i'll be like fighting with ppl 13 - 15 years strong

T^T

then it's now even worst.....><

kena belasah from ppl younger stronger than me

i'm not reall that naive

i know out there

there are people better than me

though Master says im good

i know there are plenty more ppl out there

that'll make me look like shit

*slaps*

curses...pessimist much?

so here goes nothing

i cross my fingers in coming back alive

hoping my face doesn't get damaged

praying i can still walk after it

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okay...

call me paranoid

usually i dont post about fam gatherings

but this one just aint right

i went to my uncle's

BIG HOUSE

COOL POND

COOL FISH

BIG BIG BIG

had dinner

and as usual at these gatherings

i find myself going

"he's my cousins?"

"she's my cousins?"

"he's my uncle?

"she's my aunty?"

point is...i dont know MOST of the ppl related to me

so i met this cousin

listening to linkin park

drinking down coke

sitting on the swing in the playground

so i went around asking their names

just so my mum WONT complain aboiut me being anti-social again

so there's Earlwin , Alex , Joshua , Jia Chii etc etc etc

everytime it feels like the boys truely outnumber the girls in the gatherings

and they do actually

so i went to get more coke

saw Earlwin pouring, so i just held out my cup

malas punye org...so liddat lo...xD

nicely he pouring n smiling...oO'''

i suffer in family gatherings as there is NO ONE my age

i have VERY rude cousins [uncle i think] that call me in words they should'nt be calling me in

i have an aunty and uncle that are younger than me

go figure...

dying of boredom

lying on the one of the single sofas laid side by side

letting linkin park keep me company

out of no where

Earlwin came told me he didn't know i was his cousin so he was a bit shy

okay....i think i get it...and maybe i didnt

yet i just said i did...

he sat beside me

my head was at the arm rest of the two chairs

i might be thinking too much

but i felt him staring

he leans closer occasionally

pinch me sometimes

mostly staring

which i find very weird

when i stared back he smiles

*fishhh*

fineeeeeee...weird ppl...

so i ignore the fact he stared like hell

then he asked if i had a boyfriend.....

WTF...since when does your cousin ask u that?!?!

unless youre really close to them la

asked for my number

well...he's my cousin....

what harm can he do....xD

right...

leaving time...

i figured why he didnt say goodbye to my sister

he only said good bye to me....

LAWLS...

okay rachel...thinking too much...

T^T

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my past isnt much to look up to

really it isn't

the amount of lie and tragedies i've caused

the amount of sins i've commited

the heap of people i've hurt

knowingly and unknowingly

the heap of people that have hurt me

knowingly and unknowingly

the consumation of my own memories

i might try to start again

bit they still live in me

they're painted in black and white

sometimes i really figured

that life isn't much of what most people say is worth the battle

between the good and the bad

between the worthy and the unworthy

between the sucessful and the unsucessful

between the failure and the achievement

between the right and the wrong

between the saints and the sinners

between the villians and the superheroes

so some names that DO bring back memories

names that brought back the sorrows

adn yet somehow there's just a bit of

" i-dont-really-care-anymore"

that brings out the strength to live on

keeping myself away from the knife

far from the scissors

beyond the reach of the blade