26 September 2010

i was walking by Warehouse the other day. And i stopped in my tracks when i saw THIS.


and guess how much it cost. RM363.
which at that time i did not have enough in my wallet to actually get myself the jacket or else i would've been the proud owner of that jacket already. D<
and dad wouldn't buy it for me cuz he says its too expensive. =3=

sigh tomorrow is Monday again.
why is there only 2days allocated for weekends?!?!?! D<
somehow my weekends seem to fly by like nothing. LOL
and tomorrow i'll do it all over again.

you know.
i expected to find someone in my class who actually has something in common with me besides the fact that we're doing further maths.
my class has no dancers.
my class has no artists.
my class has no cosplayers.
my class has no musicians.
damn saddd case...
well at least they are some narutards, bleechtards, one piece tards in my class.


" sometimes i just wish i could freeze time at that one moment and make it stay that way forever. "


22 September 2010

somehow college doesn't feel like college. it's not like there's an extra hype when entering college. it feels just like shcool all over again. with exception of the hideous blue uniform they make us wear during school. and also the exception that you do not get in trouble with the teacher if you do not touch your tutorials a.k.a homework. so you'd probably go "yay!"; pretty contented with they way things are. no uniform. less restrictions. and no one to bug you about not completing your homework. but then, somehow or rather, there's a part somewhere inside of you that makes you do your tutorials whether you like it or not. like so hidden concience hidden deep down within and constantly reminds you and gives you that weird kind of "there's-something-missing" feeling. technically to me, i was so used to completing my homework back during school time, it felt weird if i didn't bother to lay even a finger on my tutorials. and so i did.

so things are a bit different in college. where you do a lot more walking. and the classes are all freezingly cold sometimes. and technically nobody gives a damn if you pay attention during lectures or not. its your loss either way. well, look on the brighter side. there's no co-curricular activities. well, its not a must for us. everything else is pretty much the same. study. exam. get fucked up marks. feel like crap cause everyone else did better. and now i can no longer say i've never failed a subject. i have. and the feeling that i get from failing was a brand new step into a different limbo i've never entered. it was to a point i fell speechless and had nothing more to say. i was used to getting low grades or at least barely, just barely passing. but failing? it was an entirely new feeling. and honestly, it dont feel good at all. then i got to thinking, why and how and the would could i possibly fail when i did my tutorials and i could actually do the questions the lecturer handed out during lectures. that was one thing i could never understand. i mean. i do the same for every subject i take. okay. not applied. i hate applied. still. even as i hate applied i did pretty well for it. of all my four subjects my worst was physics. and i do not deny it. i have grown a certain hatrate towards that stupid subject.

one more thing. for the first time in my life i've gotten at 29/50 for my essay. yeah. english essay. i mean. that's like the kind of marks i'd be happy to get for my BM essays (which i do btw). i liked GP for the fact i still get to write essays but its all factual. and all this while i have been writing creative writing for SPM. and don't get me wrong, i score practically everytime i write. maybe one or two typos here and there. other than that i'm good to go. so, first of all, i realize my little habit of starting my sentences with "and" during my days of creative writing was not allowed in factual writing. in other words i had to change my style of writing. and another thing i never knew about when writing factual was that short form wasn't allowed. as in "can't , shouldn't , etc" is considered as wrong in factual. and i pretty much use it very often in creative writing to write faster.

and i didn't know "suicidal" was spelled as "suicidel".
my awesome GP teacher "corrected" my spelling.

so i guess starting college gave way to a lot more first-times. and it only seemed like yesterday i was ranting about being in TARC and doing my A Levels. and now, there's about one month more to my Test 3. which i have to keep my average of 60% to keep my scholarship. technically i was pretty surprised i managed to keep my average for this recent test , Test 2. it was bad enough i failed and begged the lecturer to give me at least a pass which was two more marks than my original score of 38% which then makes it to 40%. yeah. it was the first time i ever begged for marks. oh how i hated this feeling of failure. then few days back we got back our further maths applied paper and i was like "WTF?!?!" i got 83/100. which was pretty good for me at least. counted the times i never paid attention in class and procrastinated my tutorials. and today we got back our maths applied paper and i was like "ZOMG COOL!! 84/100". which again was pretty good counted the times i once again never paid attention. LOL. its not my fault his teaching sucks. sometimes the more he teaches, the more he makes me not understand.

the coolest thing about maths.

This is my Further Maths Applied paper.

a)Find the probability to get a number 4 for the first time in a fair dice throwing game after 7 times of throwing. (10 marks)

Answer: P(X=7)= 1/6(5/6)^6

b)Let X~Geo(p)
i)Prove that P(X≤r)= 1-q^r (6 marks)


= p + pq + pq^2 + ... + pq^r
= p ( 1 + q + q^2 + ... + q^r ) << i didn't know how to do after this.
= 1 - q^r << so i wrote the answer anyway.

and i got 6 marks. LOL

This is my Maths Applied paper.
Q1. (insert whole lot of gibberish)
a)In how many ways can the seats be occupied. (5marks)

Answer : 6P3 x 3P3 = 720

yeah. just that and you get 5marks.

b)If the girls all sit on one side and the boys sit opposite, in how many ways can the seats be occupied? (10marks)

Answer: 3P3 x 3P3 x 2 = 72

YES!! just like that and you get 10marks.

ok. practically the entire paper is like that. sort of somewhat like that. its down right scary how so much marks was allocated for such a simple step. kind of makes you doubt your simple working would be worth THAT much marks. hahaha...maths...XD sometimes im so happy im taking further maths instead of bio. =D

I KEPT MY 60% AVERAGE!!!!! *glee*


18 September 2010

i was browsing through the net and found THIS!!! OMGWTFH!!!
*does grabby hands* I WANT!!!!

This one has wings on both sides. but it only comes in this colour or all white. which is like =___=

This one comes in FOUR colours!!! =D with one wing on each shoe. which works for me really...looks pretty nice...






17 September 2010

Tagged on FB. decided to share with you guys as well ^^.

100 truths


1. Last beverage: COKE

2. Last phone call: Dad

3. Last text message: Twitchy ^^

4. Last song you listened to: Dynamite - Taio Cruz


6. Dated someone twice: Why woould i date anyone who's not worth the pain all over again.

7. Been cheated on: Yea...

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: LOL...probably

9. Lost someone special: yea...on my birthday...

10. Been depressed: Everyday honey...everyday...XD

11. Been drunk and threw up: never been drunk...


12. Red. Cherry red.

13. Green. Bright luminous green.

14. Orange.


15. Made a new friend: obviously rite...

16. Fallen out of love: NAHHHHHH!!!

17. Laughed until you cried?: HAHAHA HELL YEAHHH!!!

18. Met someone who changed you: i change people. not the other way round.

19. Found out who your true friends were: all my friends are true!! =D

20. Found out someone was talking about you: HAHAHA everyone talks about me (narcisist)

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: yea...o(>///<)o

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: if i dont know them in real life they are not close enuf to be added to my fb friend list.

23. How many kids do you want to have: um...two? LOL I WANT TWINS!!!

24. Do you have any pets: doggie doggie

25. Do you want to change your name: I HAVE THE COOLEST NAME ON EARTH WHY WOULD I CHG IT?!?!

26. What did you do for your last birthday?: cry

27. What time did you wake up today: 6:45a.m.

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: MSN, FB, YouTube LOL

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: next week ^^

30. Last time you saw your Father: uhhh...dinner time? LOL

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: piece of advise. no use crying over spilled popcorn. just go and get a new one.

32. What are you listening to right now: Spark - Koyote

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: um...yeah...LOL whut kind of question is this

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: MY FOOT!!! D<

35. Most visited webpage: FB. DA. OM.

36. What's your real name: whatthehelliswrongwithyoudontyouknowmynamestupididiot

37. Nicknames: (here we go again) Kong, King Kong, Queen Kong, Rach, Raichu, Ray Ray, Yee Rou, Kong Kong, Rachie

38. Relationship Status: Its complicated, private and confidential.

39. Zodiac sign: Scorpio

40. Male or female: Whut do you think?!?! =___=

41. Elementary?: St. Mary

42. Middle School?: St. Mary

43. High school/college?: TARCollege

44. Hair colour: Black.

45. Long or short: SHORT HAIR PAWNS!!!

46. Height: 162/163cm somewhere there...LOL

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: been there. done that. waste of time.

48. What do you like about yourself?: why do i need a reason to like myself?!?!

49. piercing?: three on the left. two on the right.

50. Tattoos: nope.

51. Righty or lefty: RIGHTIEE

51b. Innie or Outie: whut?! whut the hell is this?! u trying to act cute?!?!


52. First surgery: when i was 2? 3? tear duct stuck.

53. First piercing: when i was 7

54. First best friend: Chong Swit Yee ( i probably mispelled her name OTL )

55. First sport you joined: Taekwondo

56. First vacation: that one you go ask my parents.

58. First pair of trainers: uhhh..whut?!


59. Eating: no. but im hungry again.

60. Drinking: water. h2o.

61. I'm about to: answer question no.62

62. Listening: Be With You - Akon

63. Waiting: nah...im done waiting...^^


64. Want kids?: yea i guess...

65. Get Married?: well i dont wanna end up a widow with 27 cats. LOL



67. Lips or eyes: cant i choose both. I CHOOSE BOTH!! screw u...D<

68. Hugs or kisses: I CHOOSE BOTH AGAIN!!! >=P

69. Shorter or taller: obviously taller rite. i dont need a justin bieber...hate bieber...

70. Older or Younger: older...by...1 or 2 years

71. Romantic or spontaneous: a mixture of both. ahh bliss...^^

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: um...i dont really mind...

73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive when he needs to be. loud when im loud. XD

74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship. obviously.

75. Trouble-maker or hesitant: Trouble-maker. hesitants think too much and end up not doing anything and most of the time they're boring ppl.


76. Kissed a stranger: nope. never will. my kisses are special. =D

77. Drank hard liquor: maybe a sip?

78. Lost glasses/contacts: i wear neither. i have perfect eye sight.

79. Sex on first date: say whut?! D<

80. Broken someone's heart: i guess i have...

82. Been arrested: YEAH!! i was arrested for being a chernobyl child...LMAO

83. Turned someone down: obviously

84. Cried when someone died: yea

85. Fallen for a friend?: not...really...XD


86. Yourself: I BELIEVE I CAN FLYY!!!

87. Miracles: sometimes...

88. Love at first sight: course i do...^^

89. Heaven: yea. at some point of moment in time. everything was perfect. WAS.

90. Santa Claus?: still chewing on cookies mr. clause?! time for your work out session.

91. Kiss on the first date: goodbye kiss wouldnt hurt...^^

92. Angels: screw it.


94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: why in the world would i do that?!

95. Did you sing today?: YEAHHHH!!! i sing everyday actually...LOL

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: NEVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: go back in time...one year?

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: 14th November.

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: right now. NO.

100. Posting this as 100 truths?: i'm posting this as ** Two Hundred and Twenty Three ** whether you like it or not...LOL


14 September 2010


i think in general no one in Malaysia hates food. ^^ we all love to eat dont we?! come to think of it, we have a large variety to choose from.
i mean. i went to Paris last year and we cooked ourselves but wherever you walk, its like, western...waffles...etc
and my dad was like "if you wanna eat chinese food u can do it at home."

i kinda miss PEDAS. its just chicken soup with noodles and spoons after spoons of cili padi with black sauce. whatever that black sauce is. i used to spend a minimum of RM2 or RM3 during lunch break. RM1 for the bowl of noodles. then i'd go to the chinese stall to get hashbrown, another RM1. either that or i buy from the same store keropok lekor nipis, which is also RM1. and WATER. yes. something cold. some fruit or something. PEDAS honestly stands for its name. by the time we finish, my friends and i would be sweating and um...how should we put this...um...its that thing you do when you eat really spicy food. XD

and if you havent noticed. it's actually better to eat with a bunch of friends than to awkwardly eat alone. such a sad case that is. XD lol i sound so old talking bout my schooling days. XD

we used to share food. steal food was a main activity. sorta like having a taste of everything.

i miss PEDAS. its the second time i've said it. LOL

gosh. i lost my train of thought. OTL now i dont know what was i about to say.












ou well...XD



and now i have to do my chemistry tutorials.

toodles carbon life forms,

09 September 2010


i went to the doctor's again today. i can walk better now. though there's still occasional pain here and there. i'm still limping. OTL

so the doctor practically just cleaned and checked the wound and rebandaged the whole thing. nothing much. and i have to go back on sunday.

LOL. i think the deafness disease i had during my class carried forward to the doc today. after all that bandaging...

"she walked with this?"
"oh ok...(something in tamil i dont understand)"
"get her a new one cuz she walked..."
"obviously i walked..."
"what you wanna see?!"

ROFLMAO!!! how did he hear that i have no idea. it kinda reminded me for my class. gosh. i miss you guys. one day we'll all turn into turbans and have chicken and peas in a bowl!! =D

everyone's playing with my foot! D<

so yeah...about the stitches...i actually expected to see um...finer "threads" LOL.
how would i know. i have never gotten stitches til now. oh great! its tingling again. and the weather right now is KILLING ME!!! im sweating in my own room!!!!

now for my stitches...
are you ready...



LOL...when i saw it i was like...
why...is it metal?!?! doesnt like stitching use some sort of thread or something?! omg it looks like its rusted. hey wouldnt tat like go into my blood and like contaminate and like do something bad to it.(bio noob) omg. how's the doctor gonna take it off. shit! he's gonna cut it off and pull it out. OUCCHHHHHHHHH! it looks like something out of a horror film. (overreacting) haha it looks like my toe got detached. i feel so tempted to draw a pair of eyes there. XD then it'd be like... "RAWR!!! ME EVIL ZOMBIE MONSTER UNDER RACHEL'S FOOT!!!! FEAR ME!!!" hahahaha

my feet's still bandaged. and i still have difficulties walking. anyhow...i just realized something at the doctor's.

i'm 162cm tall!!! OMG IM SO HAPPY!!!! and im underweight...cis...i thought all that sleeping and eating with my current condition would make me gain weight. YAY!! 162cm!!! ZOMG IM SO HAPPY!!! HAPPY! HAPPY! HAPPY!!!

which means im still growing!! WOOT!!!!


06 September 2010

its been almost a week since my last post. m(_ _)m ごめなさい。。。AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! then i felt my feet numb a little. doctor poked around checking to see if it was numb.

"do you feel it?"
"how bout here?"
"dont lie."
"ya la. i feel it."


LOL. why would i lie?!?! and he injected me again with another dose. it doesn't hurt as much. BUT IT STILL DOES!!! AHHHHHHHHH! (less pain.less drama.less stretching of 'h') xD

but after that. i felt nothing. i felt the thread as he was stitching. um...what else...i felt the metal. watever it was he was using. and then he bandaged it. again. and again. and again.

i can barely walk now. probably limping. getting down the stairs was HARD. now the anticeptic wore off and it stings a bit. i just had my meds. i have a phobia of swallowing pills. and the pills were like BIG!! (for me aka noob pill swallow-er) i choked once when i was little. ever since then i never liked falling sick. cuz at this age, i doubt the doctors would still give me liquid. ROFLMAO. BUT I PERSEVERED!!!! I SWALLOWED MY FREAKING PILLS!!!

o(。◕ w ◕。)o

so im stuck at home for the holidays. have to go back to the doctor's on thurday again.


I HAVE 3 STITCHES!!!! (bangga kononnya)

HAHAHAHA...see see doctor drew my feet...=D
and....scibbled a bunch of words i cannot make out...XD

ou...its a plantar corn BTW...(nvr heard of it)

well. i guess i'm an OKU for the next two weeks.

there goes all my holiday plans...

camping at home. toodles,