** Hundred and Sixty Nine **

i had a hell of a weekend. long story short. my dad simply refused to send me back to uniten. pointing out i had to prepare for the graudation performance and we havent started anything. i told him it was a must to take part. IT WAS THE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH. then he went and asked DrNash about the performance thing and DrNash said it was a VOLUNTARY THING. which was NOT what he said to all of us the other day. i tell you these adults. say one thing and tell another thing. so my dad OBVIOUSLY thought i was tell HALF TRUTHS. and he had an impression that i had a hidden agenda going back so early. i made a big fuss. cuz i did say i was gonna be back by friday night. and we have so little time to prepare. and nicely DrNash says the graduation ceremony is a simple thing. so my dad went "DrNash says its a simple thing. so why are you making such a big fuss about it?!?!?!"

i'm starting to get irritated with the way these adult think.

i tell you something. my parents already do not trust me. then why would i be anymore stupider to make things worst for ME and lie some more?!?! why would i do and add salt to the wound. i'd be dont right brainless if i would actually attempt to make my own life any more miserable than it already is.

so there's this whole drama going on that my dad doesn want to send me back to uniten. how he doesnt want me hanging about with the malay guys. and how he only plans to send me for the graduation and take the bloody cert.

honest i like being in uniten. i like going to class every morning. catching the bus. waiting for the bus. eating together at the foodcourt. going to the pondok to make some more noise. i mean. through all the tension and competition to get into the top60, it was a really fun ride. then after this course ends, we'd all go back to where we came from. and obviously we wont be seeing each other that often anymore. darn. i hate this. uniten became my second home.

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well our performance went well. and most of us are doing some malay traditional dance. (which obviously as you can see i forgot the name). yea anything traditional sounds boring. but really. i havent danced in such a long time. i actually had fun doing it. ^^ technically it was fun with all my friends doing it along. and i became some backup singer for theguys from 2nd batch that put together 2songs to perform.

awwww...i miss emmee...cuz now that she's gone back i'm sleeping ALONE. in the DARK. and i dont have anyone to sing song with me anymore. and eat maggie mee with. and talk for 1hour without even realizing it. lmao! emmee i no roommate de laaaa...T^T i wan sing meetoto!!

i seriously had fun. ask luqman to do love and joy and i ended up dancing alone. damn you luqman!! i've suddenly grown a liking for theater work man. singing and dancing. lol. OMG WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME....@_@

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i guess evryone's busy appling for scholarships now. i guess i've set my mind to do CG animation. i honest do like the idea of making my drawing come to life. and not just something that ends from pen to paper. whatever it is that i'm going to do in the future i dont really mind. as long as it's something i love doing. something i have a passion for. my dad on the other hand says i should do actuarial science. something like crazy advance superman mathematics. says that all i need to do is calculate. and the pay is very high. honestly money isnt really a factor for why i work. i dont mind as long as i like what im doing and do what i like. but my dad says it;'s better to do what i like as a side job. then i'm like...i wanna study animation. and you expect me to study animation and acturial science at the same time??!?!?!?!?! my brain doesnt function that way.

so now yea...again

what to do

ROFLMAO

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love ya peeps~
rach

** Hundred and Sixty Eight **

somehow when i went to school to collect my SPM results, i was neither excited or scared. i felt indifferent. and i didnt expect much. or so i thought. i tagged along with Ramya again. as usual. and when i got my results. i was utterly dumbfounded. not because they were any good. not because they were awfully bad. i didnt know what to feel. it was like a rush of mixed feeling that left my brain confused on whether to activate my tearduct or my face muscles to smile.

Bahasa Malaysia A-
English A+
Sejarah A-
Pendidikan Moral A
Mathematics A+
Additional Mathematics A+
Literature in English B+
Physics A
Biology A
Chemistry A

so i saw my results. i went "WTF?! B+ for Literature in English?!?!". then i felt like crying. i seriously did. then i stared at the A+ i got. English, Mathematics and Additional Mathematics. Anyone could've gotten A+ for those.

i guess i was so used to getting straight As' that when i didn have straight A+s' it was a really sucky feeling. i dont find myself proudly telling my parents about my results. i wasn't happy with it myself. yea its okay i guess if you compare mine with those who got 2As' or so. but then again why would i compare myself to them. so now i know what it's like to be in the shoes of those who didnt score straight As' for their PMR and i did. it truely is a really sucky feeling.

i didnt bother asking anyone their results. well i did ask a few. ended up making myself feeling even more suckier than before. then there were few insensitive ass holes that added salt to the wound. i guess saying i didnt have any expectations was a lie. i did expect something. guess i'm filled with disappointment cuz i didn do as expected.

seriously everytime i stare at my result slip it hurts.

it seriously takes something to happen to you before you understand why others cry over it. i'm okay with my results. just not proud of it. it's like watching everyone getting all the A+ in their result slips and i stare at mine. i feel like tossing it in the bin. its like, some of them dont even work as hard as you do and they get better.

what i never understood was why my literature in english was a B+. all this while i've been scoring A1 for it and all the sudden it's a B+. maybe the appearance of the B+ in my slip hit me like a oil tank. kinda knocked me out. put me into a black out state of mind. i never expect Literature in English to be a B+. and it pops out like some ugly thing on my slip.

i really wish i could gloat and be proud of what i got for SPM like most of them.

i cant.

but i went around forcing a smile on my face thanking all my teachers. i didnt find Pn.Rabi'ah. probably should. then again i got an A- for BM. other than that i met all my other teachers. i wanted to go see Pn.Lim as well. didnt have the time. seriously, everytime a teacher runs up to me wanting to see my results i felt like running away. i felt like crap that day. i still do.

i didnt want to blog about this either.

i was bored.

besides everyone's bound to know.

i might as well tell the world about it.

signing off,
rach

** Hundred and Sixty Seven **

i was doing my assignment and i came across this. some discussion on Otaku VS Nerds. it was kinda entertaining reading it. lmao!!

5 Name: Anonymous : 2007-09-21 04:14 ID:dve0/BBY
>>1
Nerds are smart, otaku are morons.

You are a moron.

OTAKUs are not morons. YOU ARE THE MORON!! not all nerds are smart. some are just down right dimwits. we learn to budget our cash to buy figurines and cosplay and manga and anime. well i do anyway. besides nerds do about the same thing as otakus. lock themselves up. just that nerds read something else and otakus read manga. おなじ　です。

17 Name: Anonymous : 2007-09-27 11:51 ID:NBMMeXEt
It depends on the situation, and I learnt this the hard way.
I once mocked a badly dressed Cloud and then he kinda chase me around with a huge plastic sword yelling "Omnislash" or some other crap. Damn it was embarassing... =_=

*imagines scene* LMAO!!!! most cosplayers do it out of the love of the character. so mocking the cosplayer is like mocking his favourite character. i guess...i should do that sometime.

25 Name: Anonymous : 2007-10-06 16:40
My little sister calls me Oniichan these days

26 Name: Anonymous : 2007-10-06 19:57
>>25
Kill her. Then, kill the rest of your family.

27 Name: Anonymous : 2007-10-06 21:39
kill your parents. kill your parents. kill you parents. Then... kill yourself.

28 Name: Anonymous : 2007-10-07 09:53
Kill Your Mother, Rape Your Dog.

29 Name: Anonymous : 2007-10-07 12:52
>>26
No, no and no. Rape her instead. That's what real otakus do.

30 Name: Anonymous : 2007-10-07 14:10
>>29
No no, rape her, THEN kill her.2

i went =_=" WTF when i read this. OMGWTFH!

33 Name: Anonymous : 2007-10-09 11:01

Tell me this: How many Anime-figures is minimum requirement to be called Otaku?

34 Name: Anonymous : 2007-10-09 11:29
>>33
'Otaku' isn't quantifiable. Otaku is Otaku.

ROFLMAO!!! what a question...minimum requirement to be called an otaku...otaku is a self proclaimed "title". pppfffttt...requirement. "oh sorry sir, you're not an otaku cuz u dont have enough figurines." LMAO

76 Name: Anonymous : 2008-10-27 06:23
You aren't otaku because you're not Japanese. You're a weeaboo.

77 Name: Anonymous : 2008-10-27 15:41
Actually, a weeaboo is just somebody who wants to be Japanese so bad that they'll immerse themselves in the culture and forsake all of the their native culture.

For case examples:
/a/ is full of "otaku" in the American sense of the word.
/jp/ is full of weeaboo.

79 Name: Anonymous : 2008-11-16 12:29
no, actually a weeaboo is a japanese wigger.

so...only japanese ppl are otakus?!?!?

93 Name: nerd : 2009-06-27 03:33
otakus are fagz with no lives. nerds are also fags with no lives. us debating the fucking difference, kinda makes us fags with no lives.

P A W N E D

110 Name: Anonymous : 2009-09-20 13:17
I'm otaku and a real ninja but I get laid all the time, so I think everyone who is otaku and needs sex should go to a con and find some slut in a bunny suit to hump.

there's something seriously wrong with these people...=_=


ok...i got sidetracked again~

*runs back to finish assignment*

** Hundred and Sixty Six **

well i'm back home. again. two more weeks to go before AJL ends. which is really really sad. honestly, i was really happy going to uniten. even with the batik and the baju kurung and stuff. i had so much fun there. made so many friends. which i know and love. hahahaha! personally i couldnt ask for better apartment-mates than angeline, ann and emmee. most probably not all of us (who are from the first batch) would make it into the top60. i liked being away from my parents for once. do things in my own time. nobody to nag me. nobody to bug me. it feels nice to get a little taste of freedom. and after the next two weeks its all going to go away.

i met a few people who go for CF. randomly asked and found a few. there's one thing i've been killing myself about. WHERE ARE ALL THE COSPLAYERS?! lmao. i guess i just expected to meet a whole lot of otakus. so there will be otakus that draw which i can befriend. otakus that cosplay which i also can befriend. otakus which just go for events which i too can befriend. lmao. i still love my friends i made there. all of you guys. bet i'll miss all of you when AJL's over. damn. time flies when you're having fun.

the one thing i hate about AJL is the moral classes. the teacher keeps pulling off these psychology crap. i hate it when people try to discover who i am. trying to dig deeper than they're supposed to. i hate it when people try to act like they know me. and i hate it when they say it like they've known me all my life and know what i've been through. i hate it when they try to read me. i hate it when they point out my flaws when i already know them. i dont need a mirror to tell me i'm ugly. i hate it when people try to get into my head. i hate it.

great.

it's amazing how i was emo once upon a time. and when i got so used to being happy til i actually forget what it was like being emo, it felt great. yea...notice the past tense. i'm back. and i'm emo again. and it is certainly a sucky feeling. its like eating candy. you taste the sweetness and the joys of the candy lingering in your mouth. then comes the toothache when u have had too much.

someone cheer me up.

** Hundred and Sixty Five **

Chinese New Year

uh

i'm finally back from Johor. its not so bad there. a bit of visiting never hurt anyone. we used to do a lot more visiting. which was a tad bit irritating. the again it's kinda hard to arrange dinner for almost 10siblings. so i guess visiting isnt so bad. the trip back to johor isnt so bad. except for the occasional waiting i had to do. well at least i have my neices and nephews to take pictures of. so it isnt as dreadful as it was last time.

thinking of what to write as i wait for the pictures to upload.

what is there to blog about chinese new year?! i mean...evey year its the same thing. relatives come over. we have dinner. chit chat. collect ang pau. listen to this uncle gossip about that aunty. and that aunty talk about this uncle. then the same thing happens when i get to johor. the same thing. not forgetting the petty gambling the children will do. that's all. well there's the cakes and bicuits. and the hampers.

i feel like im forcing myself to blog when in actual fact i have nothing to blog about.

lets put some pictures





























chinese new year was pretty much the same. yes i am waiting for the pictures to upload again. and then after this i have to get started on my assignment. write my speech and prepare my presentation.

haha. im making myself a relia. how nice...xD

ou the math assignment is killing me. and it makes me scared bout the test w have aft the holidays. goddamnit! i cannot fail maths. I LOVE MATHS!







ok done bloggin...need to start on assignment

toodles~

** Hundred and Sixty Four **

[picture unable to upload...shesh]

Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day
48hours cramped into 24hours
well technically Valentine's Day doesnt really mean much
so my relatives came over
kinda like a family gathering
we do it every year
then we had big dinner later

my sis, my aunt, my mum and i were playing blackjack
so dad gave each 4bucks
and guess what i ended with
35bucks!! XD
well my aunt cheated my money
cuz in the begining when i hit 21 she only paid me 1buck when she's suppose to pay my double
or else i couldve had more
sad...LOL

heading off to johor tomorrow
be back only on thursday
gosh i havent finish my math assignment
and there's a stupid test after the holidays
goddamnit!!!
and if you thought form5 add math is hard
this is WAY WAY WAY harder
and there's a test!!
*starts freaking out*
and im supposed to do my revision
and study the few chapters ahead for japanese
[yes i cannot relax]
i want to get into the top60 as anyone does
and it doesn mean having basic secures me a spot
call me weird
but i like doing homework
LOL
and when there's no homework for math
i feel like dying

well i've got to pack later
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i guess this year Valentine's Day isnt much of a Single's Awareness Day. not that i cared. i've nvr celebrated Valentine's Day. lol. i sounded pitiful for a minute there. honestly Valentine's Day has never played an important role in my life. i have never counted down to Valentine's Day. sometimes i'd even forget it was ever Valentine's Day.

LOL

toodles~

** Hundred and Sixty Three **

。ひゃくろくじゅうさん　の　ポースト。

ok here's my daily routine in UNITEN.
get up at 7. catch the campus bus. get to class. have lunch. go to class again. catch campus bus. shower. dinner. homework. revision. sleep.
and i do it over and over again.

あさ　しちじに　おきます。バスで　クラスえ　いきます。　クラスから、ひるごはんを　たべます。　それから　もういちど　クラスえ　いきます。　バスで　へやえ　いきます。　それから　シャーワを　あびます。　ぺこぺこから、ばんごはんを　たべます。　ともだちと　しゅくだいを　します。　それから　ふくしゅを　します。　たいへん　ですね。　じゅうにじ　ぐらい　に　ねます。

my class is called Heian.

わたし　の　クラス　は　へいあん　です。

and the class representative is Wilson.

クラス　の　だいひょう　わ　ウィルソンさん　です。


lol...ok i'll stop.
all in all it was a funy ride. the first three weeks. i'm so glad i'm in the first batch. xD. met a few otakus. some CF ppl. WHERE ARE THE COSPLAYERS?!?! uhhh...so sad...well i brought my camera to class. pictures are on facebook.

i've studied everything they're teaching within the 8weeks in the last 2years of saturday japanese classes. then again, i was half asleep during those classes. now is not the time to be slacking. i'm gonna have to get into the top 60. plus the interview at the end.general knowledge is not my thing. uhhh.

ou and maths!! oh dont get me started on maths! its worst than add maths man!! i am i person who loves add maths. and i find it hard. all the unknowns and the powers and the expanding and the factorisation. <(@_@)>

moral. i dont mind moral. the lecturer's bit off. but class is interesting. its more of like a self discovery class. lol.

english. english is fun cuz we have a fun lecturer. well it's more on presentation and speaking skills. and i screwed up my impromptu. ran out of topic. go figure. and its 15%. how sad.

KOKO. OMG KOKO. it doesnt suck as bad really. first class we did the chicken dance. which was funny cuz the guys were doing it funny. then we had to do some malay traditional dance. which was fun as well. surprisingly. then we had a boring session cuz it rained. then we went to the driving range!! yes. to play golf. and yes it was fun. my ball flew! my ball flew! well i had my share of air balls. LOL.

what else...

i dont have much to blog about...

toodles~<3