** Hundred and Thirteen **

i'm dying...

slowly...

quietly...

fading into nothingness...

** Hundred and Twelve **

damn. i know i haven't been updating much. and this blog can be seriously makred as D-E-A-D.

so here's my daily routine for everyday of my boring old life.

MONDAY
get out of bed wondering why monday. the morning assembly. the headmistress's yacking. all those stupid prefects. monday ends early but with a whole lot of homework usually. and i come home. pop dead on the bed after a sickening day of school. sleep til dinner time. take a shower and start with the piles of homework until 2am.

TUESDAY
i only had 4 hours of sleep and today's the longest day. i get to school. some funny shit might happen. some down right bullshit might happen. and then the homework piles up. i stay back in school til 3.30 for taekwondo and after 1hour of throwing punches and kicking the crap out of air molecules it's tuition. Sejarah. Maths. Add Maths. long excruciating hours. and all ends at 7 when i get home and eat dinner take my shower it'd be close to 9. and then i return to the piles of homework again. and more or less sleep around 2am or 3am

WEDNESDAY
need i say more. i drag myself out of bed. go to school. walk the same halls. see the same teachers. do almost the same thing. then i watch my homework pile up again. and those that i have left upon sleepiness grown even highe now dont they. the homework never seems to stop. and so school ends at 2.10pm. then i return for tuition again. Physics. Chemistry and Bio. up to 7pm again. and i get home. hungry. tired. and all i could think about was that pile of homework waiting for me at home. same as always. bed time's at 2am...3am...4am...depends on the homework

THURSDAY
this is one of the more not-so-hectic days of my life. which i just drag myself to the end of it. the hours of sleep i get doesn't really matter anymore. i no longer get my 8hours of sleep. so if you ever see a scary looking girl with really dark circles around her eyes dragging herself as she goes. that's me. school ends at 2.10pm today. and i get home to do more homework. well then it's dance class at 7.30 to 8.30. and back home. shower. breathe. homework. sleep.

FRIDAY
it's the end of the week. well not if i have school tomorrow. school ends early. everyone rushes home. and i rush to tuition again. English and Bm. and it's up to 7 again. long excruciating hours. extremely long. and i'm starving half the time sitting there. and counting down the seconds to going home. then it's back to home. dinner and shower. and time to drown in all that homework again.


believe me when i say this. i am not exagerating on homework. neither do i procrastinate. im trying hard not to. i'd be dead if i did procrastinate. seriously in deep waters if i do.

so here's me.

trying to cope with everything and nothing.

going through the motion.



GOD. HELP ME.

** Hundred and Eleven **

i'm back from Johor. and still i have my piles of homework waiting for me. and what's worst, i can't find my tatabahasa book!!!!! damn it. but now i've gave up looking for it cuz i have no idea where i put it. wait. i know where i put it. it's in that stack of books i had beside my table before i left for Johor. and now it's not there. i checked my bag and all the stacks of text books down stairs and no it isn't there. so i haven't got a clue where it is. worst comes to worst i'll just lend someone's book photocopy what i need and redo everything. since she hasn't marked the book yet.

my phone bill. my phone bill. la la la la.

well i hid my phone somewhere now. don't know where it is. seriously. how the hell do you hide your own stuff and not being able to find it. so going back to Johor was more or less just for the sake of red packets and stalking my nephew and nieces. they're so adorable!!! why wouldnt i stalk them. it's not like i have anything to say to my cousins i have nothing in common with but our DNA. it's unlikely i'm gonna strike up a conversation.
"Hi cousin."
"Hi."
"How awesome right?!"
"What's so awesome?"
"How we share the same DNA."
"Hardly."
what a lame conversation.

i finished my add maths intervensi paper yesterday. bloody functions so damn stupid. and when i finished i was like what?!?!?! 13 questions ONLY?!?!.

i can't tell you how extremely excited i am. i'm so excited i'm not even bothered to open my red packets. yeah. that's how excited i am.blahh!!!!!

i don't know whether to be excited to be going back to school and Tuesday. or just dreaded to be doing so.

doujin.
homework.
doujin.
homework.
eat.
homework.
blog.
homework.
sleep.
eat.
school.
homework.

damnation.

WTF is wrong with 2009.